Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
What I have experienced since sending out my blog is worthy enough (in my opinion) to go on the Huff Post Community Kindness page. If you haven't read their happy news page, here it is:
I have been getting a steady stream of calls, text messages, emails, and even mail from family, friends, and people I haven't talked to in years but that I have been fortunate enough to meet in the last 10 years of my adult life.
Every day, I get at least a handful of nice messages and they always seem to arrive at the perfect time. I'm either sitting in my ice cube (this is what Connell and I refer to my bedroom now that we have regressed to sleeping in separate rooms so he doesn't get frost bite), at an appointment, in line at the grocery store, walking back from the pool.
At any of those moments, I may be enjoying a blissful moment of not wanting to scratch my skin off, or on the verge of crying and telling Inez that it's really important that she just come out now. or practicing my deep breathing, or wondering what the hell I was thinking when I decided to run an errand at 3 pm when it's 80 degrees outside.
I remind myself in those moments of sheer frustration and anger that I can't ask for my itching to go away, simply for it ease up so I can breath, talk, listen, and give Inez a moment of not flooding her with stress dose hormones coming out of my pores.
I think of Connell's words in some of the conversations we have had about emotional intelligence.
"Lean into discomfort"
It's my only option at this point, and I try to remind myself of it.
Let me give you a pick me up. Here's an almost finished picture of my version of the countdown chain
|The chain starts at week 30 and every tag is for a day of that week|
|I flip the cards over when I get to that day and read your awesome inspiring messages|
FYI- Wk 31 tag is so old- I'm definitely 31+2 today, but whose counting?
I haven't decided where it belongs yet
Here are some of the lovely things I have gotten in the mail lately that are helping keep me busy and distracted