I only have words for you today.
Life is complicated. Sometimes I yearn for change while fearing it all in the same breath.
Someone reminded me of a poem this week. It was about the thread that weaves the events and memories of our lives together. It's about what guides our decisions, our ambitions, and even our fears at times.
It was a reminder. Sometimes the external shine, the dirt, the stains, the scars-they are important and can be distracting at the same time. I know my life is what I have, and I think about it most mornings. I want to love, to learn, to grow. I want to see my children smile so hard it hurts their little cheeks, I want to continue to adventure with Connell and know that having me around helps him love, learn, grow, and strive to be better- all things that he does for me. I want to support and love my mom, I want her to never feel without anything while she is with me. I want it to be enough. I want my brother to love himself without anyone else's approval because he deserves it.
I want to care for my fellow community members. I want to help the women and men who work, who raise others, who sweat, who cry- I want them to know that someone cares, that they are important, that their dreams can be real, even though sometimes it may seem that we don't deserve it or it's not on the menu for them.
If you have similar dreams and aspirations, I want you to know that I believe in you and it's possible. Difficult moments are called living and if it's hard sometimes, then you're doing it right.
Make sure your change is in the direction of progress and following your thread. It should not feed your fear, it should not help you run away from what's hard or what you "don't deserve" or are "not enough" for.
Stay. Listen. Breath. Move Forward. I believe in you.
